Monday, June 15, 2009

my heart stretched across the coast

For the past week I've been in Florida with the kids visiting my family while poor lonely Jared has been at home in San Antonio studying for some test with initials that I always mess up. C.R.L.P.C? C.P.R.P.? C.S.I.? Anyway...he's supposed to take it in July.

Kevin flew one way to San Antonio and drove with me and the kids so I wouldn't have to go alone. It was nice to have that 12 hour drive to talk and catch up. I can't imagine what sort of institution they would have had to bring me to if I had to make that drive alone with the kids. Having someone to talk to just makes the trip go by so much faster. I have missed Kevin. I tried not to take for granted the time we had when we were living together, but so often failed to appreciate the moment we were in.

Since we've been here, things have gone pretty smooth. Daddy is in from Iraq and we're spending more time together than we have in a long time. We went to Chuck-E-Cheese a few times, played at a water park, and brought the babies to Blackwater River when Grandma Walden visited from Mississippi. So far, we've eaten at two gross chinese buffets, but picked up some yummy food at the oriental food store. Mimi took me shopping and bought me my dress for Lori's wedding next week. I took Mama shopping and scored a great 80% off sale at Hobby Lobby and decorated her living room. Papa's birthday was today so we celebrated with german chocolate cake. Sadie made a card and was so excited for papa's birthday she couldn't wait to give him his gift - straight out of the JCPenny bag I bought it in!

Sadie is completely excited to be here with Mimi and Papa, Jammie and JJ, KK and Kyle. I feel sad thinking of how she will miss them all when we leave next week. I remember that feeling when I was little. The hallow feeling that follows the good bye after a good time with the people you love. I don't think I've out grown it.

Jared will fly here in 10 hours. We'll head straight to the beach for a mini family vacation. On Sunday we'll come back to Mimi and Papa's - tired and sunburned- and enjoy our final day here on Monday. Tuesday will be a rough day for me. With every state line my heart will wrench a little more. There will be tears; and of course, a 12 hour drive home.

My sadness will be tempered, though. This trip is the first trip that will bring me home to MY house. How sweet it will be to be with my husband in our home again; making suppers, chasing babies, waiting for him to come home from work, feeling him breathe next to me in our bed.
*Sigh* Why does my heart have to be stretched across the Gulf Coast?

1 comment:

thecaillouets said...

i think by far you are the sweetest most loving person i know.