changed

Sadie looked so cute this morning in a brand new outfit from Uncle Dale, Aunt Laura, and Addison that I had to take her picture.

I was taking pictures of Jack and Sadie said "Say-dee pitchur. Ma-ma, Say-dee pitchur."
So I took one of her.


Sadie is turing two in less than a month. These two years have been the fastest two years of my life. Holding Jack, I am reminded of when Sadie was an infant. The thought of her being so small...so quiet and helpless...is almost absurd to me now. She's changed so much. Sometimes I steal small moments during the day where I close my eyes and try to remember the smell of winter 2006. I try to recreate in my mind the sound of her toy star playing music and the way the light filtered through our Baton Rouge apartment. I remember her sleeping on my chest while i'd read books and chase sleep. I remember thinking that she'd break if I didn't take perfect care of her. Now she is so strong and brilliant and the early months of her life have become a movie I recall or a book I have read. I remember that it happened, but it seems distant - almost surreal - as if the memories happened to someone else and were transplanted to me.

She's changed so much in such a little amount of time. Now, Jack will do the same. I'm breathing in every moment and savoring this.